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You Can See Right Through Me: A Twilight Fanmix

My fanmix is finally done. I'm really proud of it because I put a lot of work into it and I made artwork for the first time. It's a general mix for all three books, with songs for a mix of different characters. Under the cut, you'll find the artwork, 20 songs with download links, lyrics, and notes. I hope you enjoy!


You Can See Right Through Me
A Twilight Fanmix

1. Breathing -- Yellowcard

Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you are next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight

Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of, they have filled me up with doubt

This song has actually been the opener to a number of mixes I’ve made because I think it’s a rather powerful, and slightly haunting opening. To put it simply, this is a song for the tormented mind of Edward Cullen – a response to something pondered by many fanfictions, what Edward is thinking as he watches Bella sleep. The song demonstrates how Edward is reminded at every moment – by her breathing, her heartbeat – of the differences between them. The entire song expresses exactly the guilty!Edward we see through all of Twilight.

2. I'd Rather Be In Love – Michelle Branch

I cannot help it; I couldn't stop it if I tried
The same old heartbeat fills the emptiness I have inside
And I've heard that you can't fight love, so I won't complain
'Cause why would I stop the fire that keeps me going on?

'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you

Turn out the lights now
To see is to believe
I just want you near me
I just want you here with me
And I'd give up everything only for you
It's the least that I could do

And I feel you holding me
Why are we afraid to be in love?
To be loved
I can't explain it
I know it's tough to be loved

This is a very sweet and tender song meant to represent Bella – namely her decision to stay with Edward despite the inherent dangers, and her willingness (even during Twilight) to be changed to be with him.

3. Sweet Sacrifice -- Evanescence

You poor sweet innocent thing
Dry your eyes and testify
You know you live to break me – don't deny
Sweet sacrifice

One day I'm gonna forget your name
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain

[I dream in darkness
I sleep to die
Erase the silence
Erase my life
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day
A world of nothingness
Blow me away]

Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

I’m sure the words haunting, dark, and powerful are going to be used way too many times with respect to the Evanescence songs on this mix, but that’s why they’re on here. This song is meant to depict Rosalie’s reaction to Bella in Twilight – her jealousy of Bella’s humanity, her resentment of all that Bella chooses and represents.

4. Tourniquet -- Evanescence

I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
I lay dying
And I’m pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I’m dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?

My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Do you remember me
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me?

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ
My suicide

This song is meant to portray Esme, and Carlisle’s role in her life, although my choice was inspired in part by the story of Emmett’s change. The role that Carlisle plays as a sort of pseudo-God for his coven is never more apparent than when he saved Esme from a death which would supposedly lead to damnation. 

5. Chasing Cars -- Snow Patrol

We'll do it all, everything, on our own
We don't need, anything, or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know, how to say, how I feel
Those three words, are said too much, they're not enough

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

I know that this song has found its way onto countless Bella/Edward fanmixes, but the reasons really are obvious. It is an amazingly tender and truly perfect love song, and I’m sure that most Twilighters can’t help but to imagine them in the meadow when they hear this song.

6. Papercut -- Linkin Park

Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right underneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

Yes, I know this song is also on SMeyer’s New Moon playlist, but I did come up with connection on my own before I saw that. Outside of the song title, which I think may have actually inspired SMeyer, this song is a wonderful depiction of Jasper’s struggles to adapt to the Cullen lifestyle. I particularly fond of the third stanza in how it reflects the feeling of inferiority that Jasper must be have in realizing that Edward is able to resist his singer even while being in close contact with her for so long.

7. Bring Me To Life -- Evanescence

How can you see into my eyes
Like open doors?
Leading you down into my core,
Where I've become so numb.

Without a soul,
My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold,
Until you find it there and lead it back

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside.
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside.
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark.
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run.
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone.
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become.

Now that I know what I'm without,
You can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real.
Bring me to life.

Bring me to life.
(I've been living a lie.
There's nothing inside)
Bring me to life.

Frozen inside without your touch,
Without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead.

(All of this sight,
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
but you were there in front of me)
I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.
(Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul
Don't let me die here.
There must be something more).
Bring me to life.

Another song which has made it onto 80 gajillion Twilight mixes. I couldn’t resist this one, however, because I think I listened to this song about 1,000 times while I was on the bus reading New Moon. I don’t think you can really pinpoint it as a Bella to Edward or Bella to Jacob song, because I think there are elements of both in there. But clearly, the lyrics are incredibly appropriate.

8. My Heart -- Paramore

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours

Another simple, but powerful and beautiful song, this time for Bella and Edward’s reunion. I think it really speaks for itself.

9. It's You -- Michelle Branch

If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one thing
I would tell it to the stars and the sun
I would write it for the world to see
And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room
Oh it's you
Oh it's you

If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one wish
To kiss your quiet mouth
And trace the steps with my finger tips
And it's you
The light changes when you're in the room

Oh it's you
Oh it's you

Okay, time to take a break from all the B/E love to interrupt with some Alice/Jasper love. This song is by far the sweetest on the mix, and I think it perfectly represents their love. I had to place it here because it was this inspiration for the fic I wrote about their reunion in New Moon.

10. Good Enough -- Evanescence

Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
And I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
Can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
It’s been such a long time coming, but I feel good

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
‘Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me
‘Cause I can't say no

This song and “My Heart” play similar roles on this fanmix, however, this song also reflects Bella’s “epiphany” and her determination to really take action with regards to her mortality. And, this is just a really amazing song which I think is one of the truest reflections of love in all of music.

11. Snow White Queen -- Evanescence

You'll never know the way your words have haunted me
I can't believe you'd ask these things of me
You don't know me

You belong to me
My snow white queen
There's nowhere to run, so let’s just get it over
Soon I know you'll see
You're just like me
Don't scream anymore my love, ‘cause all I want is you

Wake up in a dream
Frozen fear
All your hands on me
I can't scream

I can't escape the twisted way you think of me
I feel you in my dreams and I don't sleep

I went back and forth for a while on what exactly the purpose of this song should be, but I ultimately decided that it should be a reflection of Rosalie’s death and her reaction to her life as a vampire. Placed here in the fanmix, of course, because of her little “storytime” in Eclipse, I think this song does a marvelous job of reflecting her issues with both Royce and Carlisle and her resentment of the hand she’s been dealt in life, and death.

12. On The Way Down -- Ryan Cabrera

Sick and Tired of this world
There's no more air
Trippin' over myself
Goin' nowhere
No direction
And I took a dive

And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
But I held onto you

I've been wondering why
It's only me
Have you always been inside
Waiting to breathe
It's alright
On my face

I was so afraid
Of going under
But now
The weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing

A song for everyone, who, like me, pretty much died during the “I’m sorry, ma’am” scene. I’ve actually never seen this on a J/A fanmix, which is odd because I think it perfectly depicts how Alice saved Jasper.

13. Keeper -- Yellowcard

I wanna love, I wanna live
I want you to love me
I want you to leave me
I wanna stand where I can see
I'm watching you love me
I'm watching you leaving me now

I wish I could be somebody else
I wish I could see you in myself
Wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me and
Say what you really feel
You know I need something that's real
I wish there was something inside me
To keep you beside me

I wanna know if I could be
Someone to turn to
That could never hurt you
But I know what you think of me
Yeah, you had a breakthrough
And now I’m just bad news for you

In case you missed the memo, I really love Yellowcard. This is a really a pretty straightforward, but a very emotional song for Eclipse Jacob. Poor guy.

14. Disturbia -- Rihanna

What's wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I'm going crazy now

No more gas in the rear
Can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can't even speak about it
Out my life out my head
Don't want to think about it
Feels like I'm going insane

It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It's too close for comfort

So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like

This choice was inspired by [info]silentscream821’s excellent fanfiction. I think it’s an excellent reflection of the mindset of a newborn vampire. And although Bella isn’t a newborn yet, Eclipse is the book with a whole bunch of newborn’s running rampant, so this placement seemed appropriate. 

15. Only One -- Yellowcard

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

A great Eclipse song about fighting for the one you love. Because at the end of the day, Team Edward is victorious.

16. Stronger -- Kanye West

Work it, make it, do it,
Makes us harder, better, faster, stronger!

Work it harder, make it better,
do it faster, makes us stronger,
more than ever, never over,
Our work here is never over.

N- n- now th- that don't kill me
Can only make me stronger

Well I'd do anything for a blonde-dike
And she'll do anything for the limelight
And we'll do anything when the time's right
Ugh, baby, you're makin' it (harder, better, faster, stronger)

So the lyrics to this one aren’t perfect – but parts of them, as well as the overall feel of the song as a whole works well for Emmett and Rosalie, or so I think. Ultimately, this was just way too much fun not to put on here. 

17. Wisteria -- Richard Shindell

Let’s not drive away just yet
Give me a moment more
To walk through those rooms again
To walk through that door

If we turn off the radio
I’ve only to close my eyes
And the wind in the sycamores
Will carry me home

The vine of my memory
Is blooming around those eaves
But it’s true it’s a chore to tame

I’m tempted to ring the bell
Maybe they’d let me in
Or maybe it’s just as well
To let just be

Remember the love we made
The day we moved in?

I know it’s not my place
But how could they just cut it down
And not leave a trace?

This song doesn’t fit strictly with any part of the books, but it is a beautiful, nostalgic song which I find incredibly appropriate for our immortals as they move through the centuries. Specifically, this song could correspond to something I’ve seen imagined in many fanfics – Bella and Edward returning to a previous home. 

18. The Taste -- Five For Fighting

So I seen her
In a land that was forgotten
She brought a candle to my mind
But it got no easier then
So I snuck out of her apartment
I went down to buy a premium
But all that settled was my mind, for a time
Till she showed me what a fire was

I will be a happy man if you're my sacred son
I could be a dividend if you're my only one

And for a moment I was blind but for the time
I caught a glimpse inside the universe there
I couldn't handle the dimensions
See 2+2 can = 5 here

There I fell into a coffin
Brought the water in my eyes
(Surprised) I wondered at the miracle there

When it all was finally over
I thought about our time here
Here where everything's divine
Well I find I still got the taste for you
I still got the taste for you
I still got the taste for you
I still got the taste for you

If you're my only one

Another song where the music, and overall feel of the song, corresponded with the lyrics to contribute to my inspiration. A song for Alice and Jasper as they move into their happy (and sexy) future. 

19. Empty Apartment -- Yellowcard

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see something's missing?
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

This is one of my favorite Yellowcard song ever – a really powerful song meant to reflect a post-Eclipse Jacob as he regards Bella. I think this song does a tremendous job of portraying Jacob’s heartbreak, his inability to understand Bella’s decision, and his total devotion to her. And it’s just really, really sad. If you listen to nothing else on this mix, listen to this because the bridge is one of the most incredible things you will ever hear. (IMHO).

20. You and Me and One Spotlight -- Yellowcard

It won’t be long now
The music’s on loud
We’ll sing this song out
And then we'll lie down
I’ll hold you close then
I’ll let you know when
The space and time bend
And then we’ll fall in

Go put on your best tonight
It’s you and me and one spotlight
One more show one last time
We are ready

Say you will be all around me
When your body sets your heart free
Say you will be all around me

I’ll look for your eyes
To keep me inside
When everything dies
But one last sunrise
And when we stand there together not scared
I’ll dry your last tear
And then we'll just have

Go put on your best tonight
It’s you and me and not much time
So watch the world burning bright

Say you will be all around me
When your body sets your heart free
Say you will be all around me
Say you’ll get me before the ending
Take my body set my heart free
Say you’ll get me before the ending

Simply put: the perfect song for Bella and Edward’s future, looking forward to the events of Breaking Dawn and their eternal love.

I hope you all enjoy this; it was really fun to make. And just to say it once more:



Tags: evanescence, fanmix, music, paramore, twilight, yellowcard

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